On struggle street. Drowning in chaos. Up shit creek without a paddle. That's me.
I'm doing the best I can. I'm trying to manage the children, this house, the mayhem of everyday life with as much aplomb as I can muster....it's not working.
After the fairytale that was Hubby's and my escape on Friday night we returned on Saturday to reality...and to complete disorganised chaos. I thought I had everything planned to a tee. I thought I had communicated with everyone that I needed to and we could have a brief amount of alone time, time to recoup and just be together. We did just that, but when we returned....let's just say the proverbial shit hit the proverbial fan.
So, today I'm flat. I'm disappointed and I'm just a little bit annoyed (a little bit? Let's just say a lot) We won't be doing it again....which is sad. Because we needed it...we really did.
I try to always do the right thing. I really do. I've always gone out of my way to make sure people don't think I'm taking advantage of them. If I make a mistake it is completely accidental. We all make mistakes...it's how we learn, grow and move on.
I don't always live up to expectations. I feel like I'm constantly trying to prove that I'm good enough, I work hard at keeping everyone happy. It's impossible...I know that now.
Today, I feel a little bit broken. Today I feel like I'm in a million pieces.
But tomorrow.....I'll be brave again tomorrow.
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I know EXACTLY how you feel. Big hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh Lene!I know how you fee, and I'm so sorry your time to recoup was spoiled by what you had to deal with when you returned home. xx
ReplyDeletePlease know that we have all been there! I know it probably isn't much help to hear this but I too have been in exactly this situation but I can honestly tell you that life gets easier when you don't stress about things too much. Be calm, put a smile on your face and take each day as it comes!
ReplyDeleteBest wishes,
Natasha.
Oh that's a shame! I'm sorry your 'escape' turned sour, by whatever it was.
ReplyDeleteStand tall, smile and be positive. Look past the shit. Go ahead and be brave! x
Oh Lene! What happened? I know sometimes, it's not worth it but we don't go out much and never overnight. It's just not worth the hassle. Hope everything's okay?
ReplyDeleteAnne xx
Hearing you loud and clear.... feeling much the same way myself right now. maybe together we can rebuild the million pieces that was us.
ReplyDeletejust know that in amongst the million pieces of you, your not alone, there's another million pieces, and that's me. And because we can, and we do, we will piece ourselves back together. x
I'm so sorry Lene. A million pieces CAN be put back together again, they really can and just maybe the fault wasn't all yours. x
ReplyDeleteOh Lene, it's a horrible feeling. I get that too, and have told hubby many times that brief relax time is just not worth the hassle of catching up afterwards. But you sound like you really enjoyed your getaway, so in the end, you'll have some nice memories from that once the dust settles. Take care :)
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